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Chapter 1
"BACKSTAGE"
"What the fuck are they doing here?" she muttered, almost loud enough for the others to hear when she saw her 'ex ' family and 'THEM!'. She was backstage at the auditorium peeking through the curtains at the large crowd that was anxiously awaiting to see if all the things her half brother always bragged about her being the best was true.
"What'd you say, Jacko?" ,Kid said as he walked up behind her gently tossling her long blonde hair from behind her. He was about the only man that she allowed to touch her. They had been born just a day apart, Kid first, at the same hospital. Their Mothers had been placed in a special room for unwed mother which is where they talked and finding they both had the same problems, decided that after they had the babies and were released from the hospital they would move into an apartment together, sharing the expenses and trying to save them some money. They eventually both got jobs, different shifts, and while one worked the other watched the babies. For 9 years they lived like this, they were thier own happy little family until that fateful day Jacki's mom was killed in a terrible accident that Jacki herself had witnessed. She will never forget that awful moment that at the age of 9 she was helping her mom bring in the groceries from the car that was parked out on the road in front of the apartment building in Detroit. She heard a terrible screech of tires and turned around just in time to see a truck hit her Mom and pin her between thier car and the truck. She died instantly but the memory of the shocked expression on her mothers face would live forever in Jacki's mind. After that she had to go live with her Father, pregnant step mother and half brother, Nick, who was 4 and a half- sister, BJ who was 2. "Jacko? Jacko?", Kid shouted finally giving her a shove almost pushing her through the curtains to get her attention.
"Shit Kid, what the hell you trying to do! Make sure I get out on the stage?"Jacki spewed as she turned around and faced the long dark hallway that led to her dressing room. " I told you I would do this! God knows why, but, like a fool I agreed to it!"
"What the hell is wrong with you,Jacko?", he yelled," You know you are gonna be great! I don't know why you have been hiding your talent all these years, I mean the hell with your fucking half family, ex fanily , or whatever the hell it is you call them! You know you're better than all of them put together! And sexier too! Hell if you weren't like my fuckin sister I would make a play for you every opportunity I got!"
At this Jacki turned around and put her fist up to his face saying, "Yeah and you know where this fist would be shoved too!" And then she walked down the long dark hallway to her dressing room where she could wait in silence for the opening act to be done. Just what the hell was he talking about? Everyone knew she didn't have anything to do with men,especially Kid, nosiree not this girl, she had had enough mental abuse from her father to last a lifetime. Men were no good! Nope she has lived without the hassels of a man for 26 years, so why start now? She was also to busy to date anyways, I mean up until now she had a normal , everyday job of being a nurse, plus was the lead singer/dancer in a small band her, her cousins, and some friends had formed years ago that played on weekends at small local clubs in Kentucky, where she had been living with her mother's family for the past 10 years after her Dad had kicked her out of his precious family, at age 16, for being a bad influence on his 'real' children. Jacki always thought "What am I his fake child?" . Anyways this band helped to satisfy her need to perform. The need she had since she was around 4 years old and her and Kid would dance and sing to songs they heard on the radio and songs they made up . The need she had when she had to leave her best friend and singing partner, Kid, and go live with her Dad and his' family' after her mother was killed . She was so lonely and depressed at the time but the need to sing and dance never stopped growing inside her. In fact it just got stronger , so she got her little half- brother Nickey, 4 at the time, into singing and dancing with her, when 'They ' weren't looking. He was the only one that loved her, loved her to the point of it being an obsession with him, the obsession that would eventually get her kicked out of the family and almost ruin her life. It all began when she came to live with them, she was so frightened and upset after her mothers death and the way things were not going the way she thought they should be going. Night time was the worse because she would dream over and over the horrible scene she had witnessed of her mother being killed. And then, the heartbreaking scene that took place when her father came to get her and bring her home to live with him in Florida. He had moved there after getting a divorce from her mother, just weeks after meeting Jane and about 7 months before Jacki herself was born. He had arrived at Jacki's Grandmother's house, where everyone had gathered after thefuneral, his mouth was drawn in a tight grimace that made everyone know without a doubt he did not want this beautiful child. And Jacki , to young and upset, to know what was really going on, was anxiuosly awaiting for the arrival of the father she had never seen before, the father who never wanted her, the father who had told his young wife, just 2 months pregnant, that he had met someone he really loved ! Well, when his wife told him she was pregnant he about hit the roof and told her she had to get an abortion, that he didn't want a baby from a woman he didn't love, that he only wanted his new love, Jane, to bear his children, and with all that said he left her. A week later he sent her a letter with enough money to get an abortion writing that if she did decide to have the baby and keep it, he would not claim to be its father and would never support it. But Jacki's mother did not scare easily and went to welfare and they helped get her support from him during and after the pregnancy. Jacki never knew about all this until she found the letter years later. But now, while waiting for him at her grandmothers she kept thinking "My Daddy is coming to get me and make everything ok again" These were the only thoughts of comfort that kept the child from losing her young mind. She pictured him walking in and her running into his arms and crying her heart out and him telling her everything would be alright that he would take care if her for the rest if her life and never let anything bad happen to her. But what actually happened was he walked in, gave his quick condolences to the family and then without ever even looking at his beautiful, blonde, blue- eyed daughter said in a disgusted, angry voice, "Jacki get your things and lets go , we have a plane to catch!" She stood in silent shock, there was no arms to run into, no I'm sorry about your mom, no are you ok honey, no I will take care of you, no nothing , nothing but the angry words from a father she never knew. A father she never knew that had hated her so much since the day he found out about her. Everyone was shocked, and all stood there helplessly as she, still started to cry again as she followed him out to the waiting taxi. When the taxi was a bit down the road all he said was for her to stop crying because it wasn't going to help matters. So she sat in her silence, helplessly looking out the window watching her young life passing by. Little did she know the impact she was going to have on so many peoples lives.
When she first met Jane it was apparent to Jacki that this woman hated her as much as her Father did, but she didn't know why, she hadn't done anything to them! And God forbid ifJacki got upset thinking of her loss of her mother and started crying, she got yelled at and told not to cry! So she would hold it all until she went to bed and then she would cry with her face buried in her pillow. It was the first night she was there little Nickey snuck in her room after everyone else went to bed. He had noticed his new sister didn't have a teddy bear to sleep with and might need one because she was in a strange place and had just lost her mother and looked so sad and scared. He also knew that his mom and dad didn't like her, for whatever reason he couldn't figure out, so he waited to go to her room when he was sure his parents were fast asleep in thier bed. He quietly snuck in her room and could see she had her head shoved in the pillow, and as he got closer he could hear her crying. He reached out his little hand to the back of her head and gently touched her silky blonde hair, making her just about jump out of the bed! Nickey quickly said "shhhhhhhhhhhhhh" as he put his finger to his lips. He stood there for a minute looking at his new sister, even with eyes swollen from crying she was so pretty he thought , he then whispered " Are you ok?" She just looked at him sniffling , trying not to cry or make any noises to wake anyone up. Then without a word she turned her back to him as she laid back down burying her swollen red face back into the pillow. NIckey stood there for about a minute and saw she had started crying again, and this almost broke his heart, because no matter how his parents felt about her , she was his sister and he already loved her. He crawled up in the bed with her and got under the covers putting his little arms around her and he whispered in her ear, "Its gonna be ok sis,I love you and I will take care of you and never let anyone hurt you, ever! ". And he slept with her that night and every night after that for almost a year, and no one ever knew because he would get up before anyone else did in the morning and sneak back to his bed. The two formed a bond that no one could break, no one but Nick himself eventually broke. Jacki eventually started teaching her little brother everything about singing and dancing, he was almost as good as kid was! She also protected him from everything she could, if he broke something and was scared he would get in trouble, Jacki would say she did it so he wouldn't get a spanking, I mean she would probably get yelled at for not watching him and letting him do it anyways. Plus she owed it to him, as he was the only one who tried to help her the first night she moved in with them and was so upset. It was also very apparent that the two loved each other very deeply. And Jane was very jealous of this special relationship they had. Jane already hated it that the 'Bitches' daughter had to come and live with them. Jacki hated it when Jane called her Mom a bitch, I mean her mom never did anything to Jane! In fact it was the other way around! Jacki's Mom and Dad, Bob, a truck driver, had been married less than a year ago and were living up in New York, when one night while out on a run, he stopped to help a young lady , Jane, who had a flat tire. They said they just fell in love at first sight and decided that night that he would get a divorce and marry Jane. He did not know at the time his wife was at home waiting for him to come home so she could tell him the happy news that she had just found out she was pregnant. She had made him his favourite supper, had candle lit table, and a little baby booty on his plate. But he never showed up and at about 1 am , he called saying he wouldn't be home that night and he would explain it all in the morning...
"5 minutes, Jacko, wake up!" Kid yelled as he shook her awake. Wow she hadn't realized she had dozed off dreaming of the past while sitting in her chair. He shook her again , this time she jumped up shaking herseif awake.
"What the hell you let me go to sleep for!" she yelled at him giving him that sheepish grin she would give him when she blamed him for something stupid she had done !
This time he raised his fist to her face and said, "One of these days I 'm gonna..." and then he quickley grabbed her and kissed her on the cheek and said,"Well lets go show those Backstreet Boys and Carters how to put on a real show!"
"Why are they here I wonder?" she said as they both started running for the stage as it was almost time to go on.
"Duh ,"Kid yelled from behind her both still running towards the stage," I mean it couldn't be that your brothers and sisters are wanting to see what their older sister looks like, I mean Nick,BJ, and Leslie haven't seen you in what 10 years and the twins have never seen you and its about time they saw just how perfect you are! I mean you know all the publicity that has been going on to promote this little charity thing of yours for the Childrens Research Hospital, you knew they would hear about it."
"Yeah but, I didn't think the great Carter family and that bunch of popcorn kings would come to see a show like this, I mean I thought they just liked little girls drooling over them!", Jacki said with that grin of hers again, as they got in position in back of the curtains where first Kid would run out saying his famous "MY NAME IS KIDDDDD....... KID ROCK" and then she would make her entrance by sneakily running up from behind him, the stage would be dark and smokey so no one will see her until she jumps over him in a spread eagle touching her toes, as he bends over just after he says Kid Rock, and then she and the other dancers will go into one of the most spiraling, energetic, sexiest routines that she herself had choreographed and spent weeks teaching the others so they could do it to perfection, which anything Jacko did it had to be perfect, just like her.
"Ohh my,my, aren't we are getting vicious in our old age" Kid said, giving her back his own sheepish grin, just as he ran through the curtains "MY NAME IS KIIIIDDD........
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